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So am I. Though I am more accustomed to listening for them I think. And doing as they ask.

You

[He's silent so long, so suddenly, the message sends on its own.]

With me you did?

I'm sorry. I am sorry. I will take more care with you, if that happens again.

I must ask, and this is not to excoriate myself, just to learn. Could he have been detained some other way? If that version of myself hadn't offered his throat first.

Truly I haven't come up with one that seems appropriate. This didn't used to be so difficult.

he had my memories
i think in turn he knew the possibilities
how i would think and feel in the future
there were many things he'd have asked of you, but in the end it was flesh and blood that appealed to him the most.

imagine me if you will as someone who hardly placed any resistance to my inhibitions
that i would joyfully indulge in consumption of any and all flesh
that i would accept my role as a monster.
quite honestly i'd only wish to see that version of myself perish.

Queen and Throne.

If I hadn't seen it myself I don't know I could imagine it. Still he was

we have a word for how war as awful as it is can seduce someone. It was like that. Though I, that version of myself was looking very hard for you.

Would you have had me kill him? Kill you? If it happened again.

if it happened again
i would loathe to haunt you with that burden
but better that potential man be dead than to harm anyone else.

i never want to be him.

It is a burden I have shouldered before.

Knowing I'd let him replace you would be worse.

You have my oath on it. And my prayer it never happens again.

have i not said before to be kinder to yourself?
we cannot take it back. we can only attempt to be better than before.

but i thank you.
i too pray to light that it shall never come to that.

You have said. Because you have said

Because it's you asking I am trying. I am afraid I lost the pattern of it sometime before I died.

You're always welcome.