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[enblightened]

[Ah. This is unexpected.]

Merely a moniker I chose for communication. My name is Bigby.

What can I do for you?

[firstroar]

Bigby...

[after a hesitation:] I never thanked you.

For talking to me then.

[enblightened]

I need no thanks, but you are welcome all the same.

What you said... it is not dissimilar to how I might have felt a few times myself. Particularly when my worst self is all the more difficult to control.

[firstroar]

In...three hundred years... I never had a "worse self" I was so...afraid of. All I could think was...run. Stop it. No matter the cost.

[...]

Is it...always like that?

[enblightened]

My beast -- and I mean it quite literally -- never rests. Never slumbers. It is always there, in my skin, waiting for a moment of weakness. Some days... are all the more difficult for me.

Some others are not. Particularly with those who care for you.

[firstroar]

['beast.' that's right...beasthood is just another aspect of life here now. hearing about it was very different from living it.]

It has to be a strength...I haven't yet learned to grasp myself. But I have to learn.

[enblightened]

That you do. And for me, 'twas something I also needed to learn myself. Albeit I've had comrades previously, I did not have the love of true friends until present here.

[firstroar]

...How, then? What would I do? Is there...some meditation? A practice?

[enblightened]

Of course. I meditate frequently and find other methods to manage myself.

Is this something you wish to learn?

[firstroar]

Please.

[he hesitates.]

That is...if you are willing. I've done you no favors already, reminding you of your own troubles.

[enblightened]

I am more than willing. It brings me peace to know I can be of aid to others. Worry not about debts and woes.

[firstroar]

...

It means...a little more. If there's some benefit for both of us.

Thank you, Bigby.

[enblightened]

Then know there will be. It is my desire to help, and know that I can.

Reach out to me when you are ready. I will do what I am able, and I would like to learn more about you.